Exhausted

Seems that I haven't slept for ages, I cannot wait for my lie in tomorrow! Then I go to Portugal for a week from Tuesday.

Batman, Alfred, Robin.

Completed the Race For Life earlier with my sister Vicky and my friend Sandy. Dressed as Batman and Robin again this year, with people shouting "LOOK ITS BATMAN AND ROBIN" meant that we actually had to keep running, pressure was on! We definitely needed the Batmobile for the last 1k but completed in 38 mins! Sandy completed in 41, which is good going seeing as she busted her ankle the other day, nice one Sond.
We all know someone that has battled cancer, lost or is still fighting. It was pretty emotional, but for once I managed to hold back the tears; until I was home. We all laughed, I kept making sure we didn't read anyone's back signs, and it was our own signs that made me sad. I know Ali would have been laughing at the state of our sweaty selves once we crossed the finish line and at our costumes - that can only make me smile.

Currently eating cheese and onion McCOYS and watching season six of House MD, looking forward to my holiday so I can read some new books, haven't been able to read in a while!

Until I am back from holiday, thats all I have

xxxx

One Month.

May is over, today marks a month since my friend Ali passed away. I still think she's here, even though she's gone. I want to speak to her even though I know I can't. I have listened to the James Morrison song on repeat since the 17th, it played at her funeral. I do it because it makes me remember it was real, that she is gone. It’s not working yet.
It was a lovely send off, seeing as she planned it all it had to be. As bad a situation as it was , it was nice to finally meet the people she always spoke about, she got us to meet in the end. Trust Ali to make it this way. With all this being said she put up such a long fight, never moaned unless she was bitching about chores or Logan (her Labrador), always smiled, always made me laugh and was always there for me. I have lost one of my best friends, she's irreplaceable.

May 1st 2012 Ali was 22 

May 3rd 2012 she passed away 

May 17th 2012 we all said goodbye to Ali, for bringing such great, difficult and funny memories into our lives

May 8th 2006 I was diagnosed with cancer

May 2011 I was discharged 

May is a very mixed emotion fuelled month, I could go on and on deeper but enough feelings are on here already without even being spoken. 

I passed my first year on my foundation degree course! I don’t have any college until September now so I am hoping ill get some sleep and awesome summer times. 

Me and Sond face are off to Portugal on the 12th June for a week, I want to swim with dolphins but it’s too expensive! I have two books for the holiday – Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas and On The Road. Flip flops, books, music and sun cream. 

I am going to the invisible circus tonight with a couple of people - Sandy, Nikki and Sandy’s friend Keith ... am I missing someone? Probably. 

I will take my camera and hopefully get some ace photos so I will post them up shortly… I still have to upload photos from my sister’s birthday from the 29^th May! Ahh I am well and truly slacking. That’s just standard for me though. Maybe I’ll get better at that, I really need to.

Me and Nikki are also planning/saving to go to Whistler next year, I am trying however to convince her to go this year, but next year sounds a bit more promising. Summer or winter, we haven’t decided yet!? Any ideas? Maybe Summer and then a winter visit a year or two after? Haha.

I miss my Portsmouth visits already, I’ve made a promise to myself to go and visit Carole and Ali’s friends over there during summer. Maybe I’ll steal her dog Logan. Ha, maybe not, one Labrador is possibly enough for me to handle, and Logan; well he’s a nutcase.

That concludes June’s first blog post, it is a little bit all over the place but that’s just how my mind is. You’ll get used to it =)

Until next time, stay classy.

I Won't Let You Go - James Morrison

Rest In Peace Ali x

xx Alexandra Peart xx

So, this seems to be the first post of the year... that’s pretty shocking. Not too bad though providing no one actually reads this?

Well, I’m nearly at the end of my first year on my FdA course! Deadline is the 29^th, and boy oh boy do I have A LOT to do.... so I should be doing it really, not talking to myself on here. It’s been a bit of a crazy year.

One of my best friends passed away on the 3^rd May at 5.30am, she sadly lost the battle against her brain tumour ‘Terry’, but she put up the biggest fight against it; whilst carrying on with her life. 

Ali was and always will be one of the greatest people I will ever know. I met her through Clic Sargent, had she not had Cancer I would never have known her. We used to say that to each other all the time, her funeral is tomorrow and I am still convinced I will see her. I can’t quite believe I will never see her again. I don’t know if this is normal, or if I’m insane, I’ve just never lost anyone close to me and I didn’t think I’d ever have to say goodbye, especially to someone so amazing. Her mum Carole has said I can stay the night, which will be nice to be around her family, and say a proper goodbye. 

If you didn’t know Ali then you missed out! The 4 years that I knew her, are some of the best memories in my life. She is probably the only person that ever knew how I really felt about my time with cancer without feeling awkward, and I know she felt comfortable in talking about it to me. She never really said a bad word despite how hard a time she had with it all. The tumour was very much part of her personality, after all she even named him. ‘Terry’ made life hard for Ali but not once did I hear her complain, she enjoyed her life and did as much as she could within the time frame she was given.

The last time I saw her was in January during a visit to her doctor. I went into the room with Carole (her mum) and was told then and there how much time she had left to live. Me and Carole were in a worst state than Ali. Turns out it was Ali comforting me! It takes a lot to hear such devastating news, but it takes a truly beautiful and inspiring person to handle it so gracefully.

I keep saying to myself ‘I should’ve visited sooner’ but in fact I had tickets to visit just 3 days after she died, as much as I keep putting myself down I know  that she would be telling me I was stupid and to shut up!

She passed away peacefully, and with her family at her side. One of the greatest people I will ever know,

Miss Alexandra Peart, sweet dreams xxx

If you have any money to spare, it should be given to Clic Sargant in memory of Ali. Without them, I would never have met such an amazing person.

http://uk.virginmoneygiving.com/fundraiser-web/fundraiser/showFundraiserProfilePage.action?userUrl=Alipeartchantler